Graciously Torn

I have no explanation for how I feel this morning, only to say that I am graciously torn.
Torn because I love those who hate me.
Gracious because God has told me to be--not because its something my flesh wants.

Some may consider me "extreme" when it comes to my spiritual beliefs, but that's okay. After all, it's my life to live--and my life only. I will not ever apologize for my convictions, and I don't expect others to apologize for theirs.

What happened in the Presidential election last night had me so worked up that I cried myself to sleep. It wasn't as simple as McCain vs. Obama--for me it went deeper. I guess after having a Christian president in office for 8 years, I got too comfortable. Now that the outlook is bleak, I'm shaken to my core.
I'm torn between wanting to panic and somehow supporting a man that I can't stand.

Melissa, you must be a gracious loser. After all, you haven't completely lost.

America is definitely in for change. I just really, really hope it's the kind of change we all NEED. I could sit here and argue politics and religion until I'm blue in the face, but what does that accomplish? Nothing. Instead, I am choosing to get up, put one foot in front of the other, and keep walking.
Even though my flesh is shaken, my spirit is not--nor is it broken. I'm not here on this earth to worry my days away about the fate of this country. God has already taken care of all of that worry, and it's my job to trust Him.

Trust Me, Melissa--I won't ever let you down. You are My beloved.

To my Christian brothers and sisters:
Let us NOT give up or give in. The man in the oval office does not run my life--the God of creation does! Stand up and step up to the challenge presented to us. Dig deeper--search for Him. He has not and will not ever abandon His children.

Whom shall I fear? Whom shall I FEAR?

Have no fear Melissa. I have worked all things for the good of those who love Me. That means ALL things. All hope is not lost, for I am still the God of this nation.

I promise myself to be gracious. This frustration in my flesh will soon disappear, and I will be able to hold my head high knowing who is on my side. I refuse to conclude that the next 4 years will be utter hell. I would never presume to know what He is thinking or doing behind the scenes.

Graciously torn.