Walkin' In It

You know what? Things are rolling along very smoothly around here. The past 6 months have been very trying, and even though I've shared a few struggles on this blog with those of you out in bloggerland, I haven't by any means told everything. I believe that some struggles are meant to stay within one's family--or even within one's self. There's nothing wrong with being an open book, but sometimes my chapters are not for others to understand.
Even though I've had some disappointments recently, the good waaaaay outweighs the bad. I just hate it that I've wallowed in self pity, but then again I'm not perfect.
I actually enjoy reading other bloggers' laments--it reminds me that I'm not alone in this crazy world.
Spiritually speaking, I'm in a very easygoing place. I am totally at peace with our house situation---and yes, it has taken the entire 6 months it has been on the market for me to TRULY feel that way. I know I've said I was at peace with it before, but I was secretly holding on to frustration, anger, guilt, and much more.
I do tend to hang on to things---I call it stewing over the situation. I'm sure no one else does that. :)
Anyway, being at peace about it is a beautiful thing. I know He has amazing plans to someday present the couple to us that will own this house. Like I said in my previous post, I don't want the control of the situation back. He can keep it.
I also know that I can dwell on the negative, even though I've been taught to work through that. It's when I'm alone---in the dark---in the middle of the night. I begin to worry and think that He really can't hear me. I even get frightened that something might happen to me or my family.
Obviously that's not of Him, and I've learned to shoot it down quickly. Really taking the time to count my blessings, pray for those who are not functioning at 100% (due to illness, sin, fear, worry, etc.), asking God to bless my family and friends, giving extra grace to those who might need it today (heaven knows I need extra grace constantly), and reading His Word have really strengthened my spirit man as well as my physical man.
There is a song that I used to sing in church (I was raised Baptist) that just came to mind. I remember thinking when I was small that this was the best song I'd ever sung. Now that I am older, I appreciate it that much more. Here are the lyrics--the first paragraph is the chorus, and the following paragraphs are the verses. Maybe you've heard it?

Count Your Blessings

(CHORUS)
Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your blessings
See what God has done
Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your many blessings
See what God has done

(VERSES)
When upon life's billows
You are tempest tossed
When you are discouraged
Thinking all is lost
Count your many blessings
Name them one by one
And it will surprise you
What the Lord has done

Are you ever burdened
With a load of care
Does the cross seem heavy
You are called to bear
Count your many blessings
Every doubt will fly
And you will be singing
As the days go by

When you look at others
With their lands and gold
Think that Christ has promised
You His wealth untold
Count your many blessings
Money cannot buy
Your reward in heaven
Nor your home on high

So, amid the conflict
Whether great or small
Do not be discouraged
God is over all
Count your many blessings
Angels will attend
Help and comfort give you
To your journey's end

Let those words sink into your soul and really soak them up. After all, when life throws stuff at us that we just think we will crumble underneath, remember that He has already done so much for us--much more than we could ever repay. Of course He wants us to walk in His love and reap the benefits of being one of His children. I know I can never again look at my life and think that I have not been blessed. I'm gonna walk in all of the wonderful glory He has set aside for me.

Walk in it today.
It's a beautiful thing.